Confronting 9/11 ~ “Truthers” vs. the rest of us…

I have given much obsessive thought to the subject I am about to approach… but I have found – reluctantly – questions that seemingly remain unanswered also tend to be the ones we TRULY do not want to know the answers to! Yet, there are a brave minority of people out there that do not fear what the truth may behold. You see, when there are “holes” in the telling of events that beg explanation… it is enough for some people to demand that the spaces where these TRUTHS ought to be should warrant further investigation; these things tend to gnaw away at a curious mind until one [persistently] seeks more information. The downside, though, is when that scarce information only brings about more nagging questions that have no reasonable answers. Then…well… you’ve got yourself a nasty conspiracy theory!

As a general rule, I despise conspiracy theories. They are far more often rife with far-fetched speculation, annoying people pointing fingers at the evil, conniving government, which in my mind I normally translate as “blah blah blah blah…” However! I’ve recently discovered that sometimes troubling facts can seriously disrupt the patriotic “order” of things – yet I find that I still love my country, MY patriotism isn’t really in question – it is my faith in the global human race that I reel from! Greed, power, money, murder… it all comes down to who benefits from what, when and how.

These disconcerting inconsistencies that I’ve recently ventured to face head-on, fueled by my countless hours of research, have only lead me to the realization that there is indeed compelling, stone-cold corroborating evidence that highly qualified individuals have revealed that are not only logical, but impossible to refute…! Disillusioned as I truly am, it occurred to me that I actually feel more patriotic in that I care enough to keep my mind open to even the most devastating truths about my own country—my fellow Americans. Whatever those “truths” might be. Sure, I may feel inclined to guzzle a few gallons of booze afterwards… hahaha… but the facts ARE what they are, like it or not. And believe me…. I do NOT like them. And I do not want to believe that these facts may very well be true! But I cannot just UN-see or UN-hear what I’ve learned, either.

Up until the events of September 11th, 2001, I have dismissed conspiracy theories as quickly as I was introduced to them. When tower 2 got hit and it thus became evident that the planes crashing into the World Trade Center was the work of terrorism, my immediate gut-reaction was “Oh my God… George W. Bush finally got his war on….” In other words, Bush, Jr. now had the “justification” he wanted and NEEDED to finish the war in Iraq that his father started… more than that, to hail himself a HERO and protector of the United States of America!! Enacting Homeland Security, together with the Patriot Act, proclaiming that these would effectively red flag terrorist activity on a global scale. But here is the thing: I MADE myself stop and re-assess my suspicions, because the idea of that was just too heinous to be true!

Further, after all the commotion was subsiding and people were pretty much giving up hope that their loved ones might have escaped the buildings before they collapsed…. I -personally- was out for blood. As was most of America! Above all else, I wanted justice for these people who died a most horrific death, so it made sense in my mind to absolve the Bush administration from culpability… from the “far-fetched” idea that it was an inside job to facilitate a war. But that “gut-feeling” about George W. Bush never went away. I just suppressed it because my sense of Patriotism was flying at full mast in my heart, and I wanted our country to go after those evil terrorists who somehow toppled our infrastructure in a matter of hours. I also wanted answers!! How could this have happened? To US, a super-power with loads of technology and weaponry, while our adversary was and has always been reduced to remarkably limited resources…?!

As I stated at the beginning of this article, when faced with questions like these, only MORE questions arise, and nobody wants to “go there”. After all, if the inferences derived from formerly suppressed evidence points us in the direction of….wow, an “inside-job” perpetrated by the most unthinkable treachery in U.S. history! then how can we ~ as a Nation ~ ever make sense of that?

Why is our government seemingly refusing to disclose credible answers about 9/11 that do NOT negate eye-witness accounts by countless fire-fighters, police officers, janitors, on-lookers…. To say nothing of the overwhelming observations by a vast number of mechanical engineers, aviation and even demolition experts! These past few months, I have become somewhat of a novice with regard to the dynamics of explosives, the restrictions of speed vs. altitude in connection to the size of the airplanes that hit the twin towers…. The Pentagon and Pennsylvania crash sites that produced no fuselage beyond small, scarce fragments—and a total absence of bodies from flight 93. And here’s a question: what happened to the wings of the plane that smashed into the Pentagon?? There would have at least been SOMETHING left that remotely resembled a Boeing 757…! Again, no passengers’ bodies were recovered from that wreckage, either!

I am sorry, but THESE are reasonable questions! Yet, most Americans vehemently rebuke those who raise the possibility that the “facts” given to us by the government are STILL unfounded or without merit…! These individuals, the “Truthers” as they’re called, who protest and make a lot of noise to get the attention of the American people, are largely dismissed as conspiracy nutjobs! Yet, there is a surprising number of high profile people/celebrities who -like me- smelled a RAT the moment they watched the towers suddenly free-fall **symmetrically** all-on-their-own in a matter of seconds, each one respectively. Especially building (WTC) 7 which sustained NO direct impact other than secondary fire damage from the main towers; it collapsed (again, symmetrically—free-fall style) within its own footprint, too! Here is what I feel cannot be ignored: what the 9/11 Commission Report claim happened to those buildings is not possible, neither theoretically OR physically. Building 7 did not even suffer structural damage!! (Interestingly enough, WTC 7 was not even mentioned in the 9/11 Commission report…!) Further, no fire is going to cause a demolition-styled free fall into each one’s own footprints which is what we all saw happen! On a side note: is it just me, or is it an alarming coincidence that the lease-holders of the WTCs profited over $3 billion dollars in insurance pay-outs…? How delightfully convenient for them.

One thing I know for sure: the “truths” in this world, in human history, is not for everyone. It’s like knowing the day and time the world is going to end; how many of us would rather NOT know because there would be nothing anyone could do about it, anyway?! The world views those who have the audacity to ask questions… these “conspiracy theorists”…. as crazy, appalling, un-patriotic, and grossly insensitive human beings! How dare they accuse the government of gauging the American tax-payers, killing innocent people world-wide, and providing an exclusive opportunity to set aside democracy for any one person at any time, i.e., the Patriot Act, which gives our government the freedom to take OURS… YOUR civil liberties without a lawyer, without due process or basic human rights, without ANYthing for any length of time under the pretext of “terrorism”! And how perfect for the government that people all over the world actually support the Patriot Act, regardless of their profound loss of privacy, because they fear terrorism more than they fear the loss of their civil liberties. I know this because I use to agree with them! In a way, I still do…. only because there really is no other alternative.

I am but a speck …in a sea of dust. So I place my future in the “capable” hands of FATE. If I live or die as a result, I doubt that there would’ve been any other way to avoid it. But I will say this: knowing what is or is not REAL strengthens my resolve to keep an open mind, and—unfortunately—learn to distrust everyone and everything at face value. Fact or fiction…. real news or lies…. Decidedly, there is a very thin line between them all. I cannot tell you how disappointed that makes me feel.


And Now… Tortured Thoughts

What do you do when there is nothing left but to scream………. scream as hard as I can until I can’t anymore….?? The pain is still there…. It won’t stop. What do you do when you cannot find answers to any more questions….? When the questions, themselves, no longer seem to matter…

Is this what it is to wish for the quiet of death? You know that you have a responsibility to all those you love and who count on you, so of course it’s just not an option. But how pathetic that a “sense of responsibility” is what stands between continued suffering and the release of death! Fucking sucks.

On the grand scale, my existence means nothing… except to the few who have remained with me in my life. My desires for someone/something are irrelevant to the bigger reality staring us ALL in the face: It’s not just about me… or any of us. Sally loves Joe, but Joe only marginally cares for her…. Sally would set aside her entire life to be with Joe, but Joe has his eye on a few other ladies he works with, so…. nothing in this world can make him change for Sally no matter how hard she cries… prays…. wants. We’d all like to imagine that our feelings mean more to other people… that my heart-break is significant to those whom I love. But it’s not. I live, breathe, exist…. for no particular reason whatsoever. People walk on by… struggling with their own lives. So who am I to expect anything to be different for me, for me to try and claim exclusivity on the caring of others?

I am to blame for every stupid thing that I do. For every chance I take…. and for what? Just to prove to myself that I really am as dumb as I thought??

~ Christina Keep (Stickler) ~

Westboro Baptist Church ~ God Hates Bigotry…!

Dear Shirley ~  If God were to choose a small faction of “His people” to condemn our nation, cast judgment on strangers, and claim to be The Voice of God—as though they presume to know what and/or WHO God “hates”…. Why would God single out the Westboro Baptist Church?  What makes you so uniquely qualified for salvation when you abuse (and manipulate) the Constitution of the United States – as you also subvert scripture to promote your own hate-mongering agenda?  How is it possible that not one of you can or will explain why you are the only ones that God does NOT hate?

If God HATES AMERICANS (not even going to bother with your rampage on Gays, Jews, Swedes…??…Big Bird, Teletubbies, Ken, Barbie and/or Bert and Ernie living in SIN, etc.)—then God must hate the very government that has -conveniently enough- given your church members the FREEDOM and the “right” to hold offensive signs, shout and sing apostate nonsense, and glory in creating a ruckus at soldiers’ funerals; these families are grieving, and NO ONE has the right to make a mockery of something so sacred and painfully personal as putting to rest a loved one who – incidentally – died in service to and on behalf of this country!  Whatever your political views, we are still talking about brave individuals who willingly sacrificed their young lives to ensure that America’s freedom and 1st Amendment rights remain intact!  You’re welcome, Westboro… by the way!  How about you try these kinds of stunts in Iran, Syria, Guatemala, Haiti, Afghanistan, Libya… the Sudan… see how well you are received by THEIR governments.  I dare you!  Hey, don’t THEY also have souls in need of your prophecy of doom??  But wait… You support genocide.  Don’t you all advocate that the Jews were their own Nazis, or some such nonsense…?

 There is so much contradiction with you people.  It’s like “opposite” day ~ every day ~ in your world!  Shirley Phelps, you cannot have it both ways:  since you hate the government, its “gay-enabling” laws and all that, then by all means, I cordially invite you to abstain from utilizing the Bill of Rights, take down your picket signs, go home and shut up!  I’ll tell you what God hates… Hypocrisy.  You’ve got that going on in SPADES, madam!  No amount of scripture can justify a single foul word you have to say.  That’s what is most frustrating about you people… Jesus Christ, himself, coined the phrase “judge not, lest ye be judged.”  Whatever happened to “God is love”?  All you have to “offer” in the way of preaching to the masses [in an effort to “save” them,] is God-slandering corruption.  You are campaigning HATRED in God’s name!  NOW whose soul is going down in flames??!  You know, I find it very interesting that the Bible actually warns us about YOU.  It does!  It tells us:  “Watch out for false prophets.”  Well, I think we can all agree that you are really really really hard to miss.

 The most tragic aspect of the whole Westboro Baptist Church spectacle is the little kids, the teens and young adults who have been brainwashed, and who are subjected to holding signs and being scorned by angry mobs of people because their parents tell them to.  That, in and of itself, is child abuse.  Those poor kids… you can see the distress, embarrassment, fear, even confusion in their eyes as they stand holding signs that many of them have no clue what it even means!  and I am not condoning the bad behavior on the part of people reacting violently to these signs… yelling, threatening and throwing things at them.  But Shirley Phelps and her minions are placing these fragile young people in harm’s way!  It is also the practice of their church to SHUN any man, woman or child who dares to disagree with their belief-system.  How can any son or daughter – any child – NOT live in fear every single day?  There is no demonstration of LOVE happening in these families.  Only judgment.  I truly weep for those children, and there should be a law enacted to protect them, if only it COULD protect them.  But all any of us can really do is hope and pray to God that these kids grow up and find their way in this world away from HATE and indoctrination.  It is hideous to see these sweet little kids holding signs they don’t even know how to READ yet, and hear the foul things being said or shouted at them—just the intensity of people’s anger must frighten them all on its own!  Sure, it’s the adults who are being confronted, but the little ones still have ears and I cannot bear to see how damaging that is for them!

 The moral of this sad, sad tale?  May God forgive and bless… all of us… even the Westboro’s.  God is being insulted daily by them, yet… those of us who know the true God know that He will forgive even THEIR willful ignorance.  Because if Heaven really IS populated with only people like Shirley and co., then I – for one – would rather go to hell…!

by Christina Keep (Stickler)  ~

Why We Mortally Fear FAILURE

How do we define “failure?”… seriously…. is it as cut and dry as bombing a final exam?… hence, failing a course that you paid a lot of money for and will now have to pay again in order to retake for the credits……

Or could it be a simple matter of miscalculating a jump across a crevasse between two cliffs and falling to your death?? That would clearly constitute an err in judgment for which the repercussions would extend to all the people who ever loved you and/or were provided for….

Obviously, what truly defines failure is the subsequent outcome…. such as death—or in lesser cases, suffering a humiliating or frustrating setback while on our own individual paths. People like to throw that word around, though, don’t they?

“Carl is a failure because he never aspired to be a kick-ass Marine like his older brothers; he just works for a super-mart…”


“Brenda partied so much while she was young, that she now has lost the ability to get pregnant and raise a family…. tsk tsk.”

Are these two individuals FAILURES ~ ultimately?? We fail to rise to the expectations of ourselves and others who are watching our every moment of every endeavor-gone-wrong… If you ask me, the fear of failing is the problem. But most of all, it’s all those people “whispering” in your ear that they never figured you would amount to anything, anyway… certainly not special—I mean, how can [ordinary] you possibly compete with a sea of other successful people out there!

And I am just talking about people who are Caucasian, like me…. How ridiculously jaded is it for people of color and/or cultural ethnicity to persist in an environment of elitist attitudes, loud political climates voting for or against all aspects of life that, in one degree or another, directly affect the gender/race minority groups in this “land of opportunity” of ours… it gets to the point that all our efforts (every race of people everywhere they reside on this earth!) seemed to have been doomed to fail from the start. How messed up is that? Unless you are a go-getter; type-A personality; aggressive and ruthless; for any person to get hired into a great and successful career that one is clearly qualified to do, you must stand out… be attractive. Or, you – can – FAIL…to be noticed or valued.

The reason I bring up this whole dark, depressing subject is because failure haunts me, as well. I have every advantage to succeed {demographically, cosmetically, loads of skills and talent} but I feel the weight of the world bearing down on me, and the ultimate consequence I fear more than anything: failure. Where is the logic? How does one break free from this trap that paralyzes even the most capable people? OCDs are common when one is stricken by this mind-set. This is something I am more than acquainted with… it is the catalyst behind what truly haunts me: myself, and the core belief I have that I’m not ready yet to fight for control over my own dominion—this is what holds me back. They say “awareness is half the battle.” Now, the challenge is to embark on finding solutions to conquer this “war” within myself.

~ Christina Keep (Stickler)

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